ok. well after all these years, I need to ask something of you. I promise that this will be the last time I will try to talk to you. I won't bother you anymore after this. I have felt like shit ever since you left me, though I have moved on. it is always in the back of my head and has caused me a lot of trouble in my new relationship. it is all because I have no closure. it's like walking around with an open wound and not knowing why. I need you to either tell me why you left me or at least explain it to me so I can understand. I need to put my demons to rest, and only you can help me do that. if you ever cared for me at all, even if just a tiny bit, you will tell me what I need to know so that I can bury this and let it die. I guess it was easier for you, since you were not the one who was left. it was a first for me, so I guess it took a toll. but nonetheless, this is something I would like to put behind me. forever. I won't forget, but I at least want to know if it was my fault or not. I want to understand it, and throw away all of the whys and what ifs. only then will I be able to completely move on, and put my mind, heart and soul to rest about it all. so if you have any human decency like I think you do, or just a fucking heart, you will write back and tell me everything. please.
he wrote back:
U want an answer I'll give u an answer. It all started when u fucked up and and didn't tell me you were still with your other boy. Then it just continued with all the flirting and it wasn't with me. All are relationship was just based on sex. Other then that we were nothing. And that's not what I wanted. I wanted everything to be different. All u wanted to be was a lil girl that never wanted to grow up. I wanted a lady to us her brain and finish school. I didn't want a high school drop out. That would have made our lifes hell if we would have gotten married. I thought I was able to open ur eyes and see what was better for us but u never seen what was best. And I couldn't do it anymore. That's why I didn't give u an explaination because I thought u were smart enough to figure it out but I guess I was wrong again. See we were never a good pair to start with and I finally realized it. U know I gotten in to so many fights with my dad because of u and I't wasn't worth it. Nothing is worth my family and that was shit on ur part to make me choose between u and them. I even lost all respect from my dad. That just broke me to piece's that my dad was so disapointed of me being with u. See everyone seen that we were nothing together. After we broke up it was a breath of fresh air. And I got my shit together and graduated. I met my fiance and I have never been happier. I am in college and I work my ass off. I got the respect from my family again and I am supported by my family and my girl in whatever I want to do in life. So sorry to be so blunt about everything but it is what it is and I'm not going to be nice about it anymore. So u wanted to know what happened between us. Well there it is all in a nut shell.
my feelings: ouch. whatever. asshole. he's stupid. but i'm glad it's done. my questions were answered. he was an idiot and i meant nothing to him. CASE CLOSED FOREVER!! thank you myspace.
- why he left me...case closed (PLEASE COMMENT!!!)